I am going insane. Yes, you read that right. INSANE!!!!!
Dh left yesterday and will be away from home until Sunday evening and for some reason I just want to sit and cry. I don’t normally do this when he leaves for such short times. It is miserable. I woke up this morning at my usual time, did a few dishes and straightened up the kitchen a little bit then back to bed I went. I keep thinking that if maybe I sleep for the next few days that will make them go by quicker.
I have even decided to put school off for the week as I am in no shape to concentrate on anything.
I will say this, TTC is a lot harder on my than I thought it was going to be. Mentally that is. It seems to consume my every thought. I feel like I am becoming obsessed with it. I need to just take a few days and talk with the Lord about what is going on right now. I believe my faith needs to be a little stronger.
Why do we say we trust the Lord and have faith in Him, but yet we seldom show signs of it. We are always trying to take matters into our own hands. Not that I can really take this matter into my own hands. I know that His timing is perfect, no matter what. I am trying to hang onto what I have left right now, and sometimes the only thing I think I have left is the Lord.