My days for posting seem to be few and far between lately. I have been so busy running back and forth for music practice and missing dh that I have not had much time for anything else. Thankfully dh will only be gone for a couple of weeks.
Today I would like to talk about lonliness. That is something that I know a lot about. I seem to feel this way regardless of who is around me. I use to be able to get online and chat with my friends, but even that seems to have faded. They have their own lives and friends and I feel that I have fallen into the shadows. I guess I am just feeling down for myself. My life consists of four wall, two kids and a dog right now. When dh is gone I seem to get so depressed. I try not to, but it just happens. He is my strength. He keeps me going. I don’t even have a church family right now. I feel like I have found a hole, crawled in and covered it over. I honestly think that things would be better if I had someone to talk to here in this little town. It’s nice to talk on the phone with someone, but it’s much better to be able to sit down with a friend and just chat. Since moving here in 1996 I have not found one person that fit that bill. I do have a sweet lady who I get to talk to about once a week, but that is just not what I am talking about.
Do any of you know what I am trying to say? Have you ever felt this way?