Here I am at the end of another day and as I sit here typing out the days events I have to ask myself if I am happy with the way things went today. The answer to that would be a big NO! First of all I had an appt. with a new doctor in town and I told the girls that I was going to leave them at home since it was just down the road, and to work on their schoolwork while I was gone. When I arrived home what do you think I found? Two happy children who had completed their schoolwork and cleaned the house you say. I wish. Unfortunately I came home to find two children who for the past two hours had not done anything. Zilch, Nada, Noodle! And I have to say that the rest of the day did not get any better. Except for when I ate several candy bars to make myself feel better. However, I did end up with a little bit of an upset stomach. Oh well, it was worth it.
Anyway, back to the children. I feel like I had no control over my own house today. They kept putting off work or beating around the bush. I swear, I am just going to cut that bush down one day. The problem with me is that I get too stressed too easily and they know it. They see it coming and begin to feed it. Tonight Ashley asked me this question; How can you be happy one minute and mad the next? I told her it was easy, and it is. I just loose all control of the situation before me. Both girls are dragging out school every single day. It takes them upwards of two hours to complete some subjects, ok almost every subject. They are in no hurry whatsoever. I have to sit in the schoolroom with them or at the kitchen table with them and literally stare them down and make sure that they are completing their work. This is ridiculous. They have not been practicing their music like they should have been. I thought as children got older that they were able to take on more responsibility. I think my children are going in reverse.
Sometimes I feel like I have taken on too much this year. Normally I like to teach the girls together on certain subjects, but with Samantha in high school this year I decided not to do that. Now I am feeling the pressure. I just keep praying that the Lord will just continue to give me strength. Everyday is a new day and one more day my kids escaped death.
I love my kids, no really I do.